I Don’t Wanna!

The day that I am writing this post is January 18th. I have made it 18 days into the New Year. 18 days after my “fresh start” and I am unmotivated, tired, and lazy and I simply DON’T WANNA! I don’t want to exercise, I don’t want to work, I don’t want to learn; I don’t want to do anything! I hope, for your sake, you are not feeling the same way I am, but if you are, we have to find a way to keep moving forward.

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I have signed up for my first ever triathlon. I have to be ready to swim, bike and run by the end of April. I have three months to come up to speed and this forty-four year old body is going to need every second of that time to get ready. After a week of travel and a week of being sick, yesterday was my day to get back to the Rec Center to train. I felt like I had a split personality because I had two voices competing inside of my head. One was one of the “parent” trying to convince myself that going to work out was the right thing to do, and the other voice was the “two-year-old” screaming “I don’t wanna!” After the battle continued for some time, thankfully the “parent” won the battle and I got to the Rec Center to swim and ride on the stationary bike.

You see, I am training and running in this triathlon for myself. I do not have a boss, I am not getting paid, I will not get reprimanded and no one will know any difference if I don’t train, work hard and complete this race. That is where the challenge lies when it comes to so many of the things we want to accomplish for ourselves. No one is there to push us, but we know we want to make it a reality. No one will know if we don’t succeed, but we desperately want to make things happen in our life and taste victory.

If you have followed my blog for long, you will know it is my heart’s desire to encourage you and help you live your absolute best. I tell you today that overcoming the “I don’t wannas” is not easy, but you can do it and you will! Here are a few things I did to help me keep moving forward.

  • I thought about the future. I thought about the day of my triathlon. I thought about getting out of the swim pool with that leg of the race behind me. I thought about the bike ride and how much I will enjoy it. Then I thought about crossing the finish line after the run and feeling the amazing feeling of accomplishment. When we are feeling unmotivated, let’s think about what it will be like when we accomplish our desired change or goal. It gives us a little boost to keep going.
  • I had to stop my mind from giving me reasons not to go. A few times that morning my mind reminded me of how cold it was to swim during the winter. How cold it was going to be getting out of the pool and walking into the locker rooms. My mind wanted to remind me of all of the negative, uncomfortable things involved in my training. We have to stop those thoughts right when they start. If we let them float around in our minds too long, they will convince us that it is ok to skip out just this one time.
  • I had to tell myself to “just do it!” I don’t use the words “shut-up” very often, but I had to tell myself to “shut-up and just do it!” I had to be frank with myself by telling myself to “quick complaining and go!” Folks, I can be a big baby at times. I love things to be easy, but that is not how life works, especially if you are working towards amazing things. We know what we need to do, so let’s just do it!

That was my story from yesterday. Today I have a day where I need to get some work done, and lo and behold I started in on the “I don’t wannas” again. We are going to have days when we feel like this, but we must keep moving forward, making good choices, one small step at a time.

Oh, by the way, when I was done swimming and biking yesterday, I felt amazing! And today, when I finish the work that I need to get done, I will be thankful that I pushed through the “I don’t wannas!” You will feel great too; just keep taking small steps forward! You got this!

Here’s to throwing our “I don’t wanna” tantrums and moving forward anyway!

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